Friday, November 27, 2015

Dec 1st

Dec 1st will be the day that I start my new diet. I mostly plan on eating salads.  

And also I will be throwing in some exercise!  This past week I ran the lake 3 times. It's been a while since I was able to that, I just haven't been motivated enough to run. 

I hope to be 60lbs skinnier by this time next year or at least 30lbs lighter.  

Today I had a southwest chicken salad with ranch from McDonald's!

I also took a marvelous shit, so all that running did pay off this past week. ��

Tuesday, November 24, 2015


I guess a big reason (pun intended) why I'm not online like I use to be is because of my weight, I just don't feel good taking photos from the neck down.  Today I went to the clinic, saw my new doctor and then found out my weight went up again.

Initially my blood pressure upon arriving was 150, but that was right after I got off the weight scale.

Later on, my BP came down to 124.

So the moral to this story, next time I'm taking my blood pressure test first before I get on the scale. (less stress)

My check up went fine, I got the meds I needed and now I'm fired up to lose 50lbs. 

2016 is going to be all about getting back to me!!  Me me me me me!!


Ps when I start losing weight that's when I'll start showing more than just my eyes!  

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Life's Lessons

Lately I've been pondering my life lessons, when we all die I like to think that before we can move on, we all have to go before some higher power and answer that big question, "what did you learn in life" , and its our comprehension that determines our fate, so heres what I've learned in life so far:

* if you want to make money off a business that includes dealing with people, you have to be nice to people & sell a great product otherwise they won't buy

* hope makes change happen

* you can't make heterosexual men love the same sex if they don't want to

* family is forever and thats who ultimately counts

* freedom is priceless

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Dream Wedding vs Reality

I've always wanted a dream wedding which included: 

* being married in a big Spanish style hacienda mansion somewhere on the West Coast
* lots of people there, family & friends 
* lots of Mexican fireworks
* an El Mariachi band 
* lots of dragqueens in attendance
* and of course, marrying the man of my dreams

But here's the kicker, all of these wedding plans came crashing down when I think of the reality of the situation:

* I'm single & have never been in a relationship, I've been single for the past 25 years and have never come close to meeting any kind of man to be intimate with
* I would like to invite many people to my wedding but I really don't have that many friends.
* how am I going to pay for this big wedding when I only make $14 an hour, shit, I really doubt that I'm going to put myself in debt over this.
* a proper gay wedding includes dragqueens, now this I could do. I definitely know at least two. 

Oh well.

Monday, November 2, 2015

Dragqueen Blues

Lately I've been feeling the pressure of being a dragqueen and a lot of it has to do with my size.

A couple years ago when I weighed 260lbs, I think I was the perfect size to do drag.

Now that I'm a busting 300lbs, my proportions are getting out of control.

The last guy that approached me on Grindr sent me a text saying he was into, "big lady's" . #fuck #you #asshole

I don't mind being a big girl but I just hate that guys think thats my greatest feature, my fat ass.

And heres whats weird, as a tour guide for the hop on hop off buses, these 
dumb tourist get to revel in my greatest attribute all day but they don't care & don't give a fuck because none of them are trying to fuck me.

Today on the tour buses I had such a great time.  I'm always coming up with great jokes or have some wonderful improv moments to share with my riders.  

Oh well. Tisk tisk. 

November Smuggary

Here's a classic conversation I had recently.

Me: hi

Guy in his 20's: oh sorry but I'm not into guys in their 40's

Me: cool, me neither am I

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

R & R

Yesterday was unexpected.

I went to a foot spa with my mom and afterwards, we went to the casino.

The last time we went to a casino we did pretty good but this time we got our asses kicked pretty hard. 

We had a winning streak going into last night and all that came to a screeching halt but dang it was sure fun.

We were at the casino for 9hrs, winning, losing, winning but mostly losing.

Because ended up gambling so late, we ended up getting a room in nearby Woodlands, California.

This afternoon, we returned home, exhausted, broke & happy.

This was definitely was one of my best mini breaks I've had in a while.

I would like to do yesterday again but next time, hopefully we'll win something.